I just posted a tweet simply saying this:
Today has been a good day. I think it’s sometimes important to recognise that.
… and then remembered a wee personal blog post I wrote just over a year ago.
I was diagnosed with depression in early February 2011 and I feel I’ve come so far since then in learning to live with it. I’m not sure it’s something I’ll ever be cured of and in some way I’d rather accept that it’s something of an unwanted guest that will always be there… I just need to keep my own space most days and just share a passing conversation in the kitchen from time to time… to be polite.
I was going through some pretty rough stuff when I ended up at the doctors back then, I’ll talk more on that another time, but one of the things I did, to try and help make sense of it all, was keep a personal journal on a private blog site. I’m contemplating publishing a lot of it on here as it’s quite interesting, though pretty emotional, to look back on it… but reading it now makes me realise how much of a better place I’m in since I went and got help. It’s been a tough journey so far, but things are going in the right direction and I currently feel like I’ve got more control of my life than I’ve ever had.
Any way, here’s a post that I wrote to mark a rare day… thankfully these are now more common, but just as note worthy!
From my personal journal – 25th February 2011 | Today was a good day
Just that really, nothing overly exciting. I felt pretty productive at work, quite busy and didn’t do everything on the list, but overall got a fair bit done, this is quite a change to days of late.
I don’t want to dwell on comparing this good day, to a few bad ones… but I feel it’s important to mark a day where I felt pretty on top of everything. I felt confident and started and ended the day with a smile. This is the first day since the Depression diagnosis, last week, that I’ve got through a whole day feeling pretty good.
In some ways, it would be good to put a finger on what made it a good day. Was it nailing that new contract at work? Was it the weather feeling like spring is nearly here? I don’t know. I’m hoping though, that writing this down might fix it in my mind a little.
Some days, are just good days – without having to try to hard.